I’m drowning

I gave birth to twins two months ago. We decided it would be best and smarter (financially) for me to become a stay at home mom. Honestly, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I feel like I’m drowning, I’m unhappy, I feel guilty because I feel that I miss time with my babies when I’m constantly trying to get everything around the place finished. He gets off work at 3 and doesn’t get here until 7-9ish. After work, he goes straight to his moms house because he claims that she’s been depressed since he left. Personally I think he’s blind to the fact that she’s extremely manipulative. She would rather him at the house with her than him being with his family here and she’s made that very clear. I feel like she’d rather her son become a deadbeat dad so that he can spend all of his time with her. Anyway, it causes a lot of issues in our relationship. When he gets here, he goes straight to sleep, ignores the kids when they cry because he’s watching tv or blanes their crying on me. I’m lucky if he washes a few bottles. He usually sleeps throughout the night (unless I’m so exhausted that I pass out and he physically can’t wake me up) then he gets up and feeds them at night (and I don’t hear the end of it) I’m starting to resent him. Well last night, I lashed out at him and told him that the twins don’t know him because he’s never here and that I’m sick of him going to his moms house. This morning, I texted him to apologize and express myself and this is the response I get

He sent a screenshot about apartment applications (we applied for a new place recently) and completely ignored what I said. Am I invisible?? It’s so mean.. I don’t know how much more I can take. What do I even say?