My coworker is pregnant and I wish I was her

I’m feeling a little depressed and could use some venting.

My coworker is pregnant, just entered her second trimester and this week found out she’s having a boy. I am so happy for her, incredibly happy. So happy I’m beginning to get a little jealous.

My husband when we were engaged discussed children and he had told me that he wanted children right away, but somehow along the way changed his mind. We’re both on our second marriage and have been married about a year, and I believe the gravity of the this change has begun to weigh on him. That he’d have to give up some luxuries to afford a child and me being out of work for a while. I’m 30. I don’t have time to wait for him to come around again. Menopause happens early in my family.

When I carefully brought up my coworker’s pregnancy I was hoping to have that be gateway to bring it up again. After a little chat about her I asked when he wanted to start trying, in a few years was my answer. I don’t have years to wait I answered. That didn’t seem to get completely through to him.

Each day, seeing my coworker’s pregnancy journey just kills me, little by little.