I just...

The worst feeling I have ever experience is trying so hard to talk to my mom about what I’m feeling and what frustrating me on a situation that’s going on right now with communicating with her is her telling me “ Please just shut up and leave your voice is bothering me”

It’s not the first time this has happened when things aren’t going her way and I’m not agreeing with her. I never thought it would hit me as bad as it has this pa two days. I’ve spend two days crying alone. If she so much as see a tear for ANYTHING out of me all I start hearing is criticism. I can’t feel, I can’t cry, I can’t be anything that disagrees with her. I’m so tired of this. There is so much shit going in in my life that I don’t talk to anyone about much less her. Correction the only person who’s given a dam about what I feel and cared to listen even if it’s the tiniest , stupidest most insignificant thing or situation in my life is my boyfriend. I honest think I would have just left everything and everyone if I didn’t have him as stupid as it sounds.

In the end. I just needed to vent even if no one read this. This is all so stupid I don’t even know why I’m still crying. I just need one person to talk to right now please