Help ❗️❗️

I’m fucking insecure and selfish and i don’t know how not to be my moms also a selfish crack head and I have no one to learn from I don’t want criticism I just want help 😭 my bf talks to girls (as friends) but it drives me crazy I fuckin hate it! How can I not be so jealous and controlling? How can I focus on myself more and less on wtf my boyfriends doing and who he’s talking to because it’s fucking with mentality I don’t wanna be like this I want to be me!