This is just so hard...😭

Today has been a little bit of a hard day, but I’m continue to push forward. I got the urge to take a pregnancy test this morning and it came out negative. Let’s just say my morning did not start well. :/

All I could do was bawl for at least 15 mins straight before I had to start getting ready for work. I have so many friends and family getting pregnant with what they say are “oops babies”. I have been TTC baby #1 for 3 years in February and I just feel like it’s impossible. I try to keep hope from one month to the next but month after month I’m let down. The best way to describe it is I feel like a childless mother. Last month I had a very very early chemical pregnancy and it really hit me hard. It took me almost 3 years just to barely conceive and all I can think is it could 3 more years for me to conceive again. I don’t know how I can bare that.

I’m really keeping up hope that it’ll happen sometime soon, I’m praying all the time and I just pray for everyone else that is struggling as well.

I wish baby dust for all the ladies out there that are struggling! 👶🏽✨

P.S. if anyone has any positive stories that can help keep the hope remaining in me as well as others that’d be awesome! 🙌🏻 I always like hearing others stories regarding TTC because it gives me that push to keep trying.

Sorry for the rant, just don’t have many people to talk to that understand this pain. Please no negativity! 🙏🏻