Always the one BEFORE the one

I’ve noticed a sad pattern in my dating history, I’m always the one before the one or the one guys date, I fix them, and then they move on and find their perfect match.

Examples...

My first ever boyfriend was when I was 16 to 18. I was his second girlfriend and god might as well have been his therapist too. Going into the relationship he wasn’t confident about relationships, love, himself, etc. Afterward he said I changed all of that, gave him confidence, made him feel loved, etc. So he left me and he’s now married to her.

My second boyfriend from 19 to 20. A complete player type. Never been in a relationship, one night stands only, hated the idea of love, monogamy, etc. For some reason he stuck with me and we dated for a year. He claimed the same thing. I showed him that love and relationships are worth it, I “made him a new man”, etc. The next girl he dated, he’s now engaged to.

Third boyfriend same thing, fourth same thing, fifth same thing, etc.

I’m now 24 and forced to have this existential crises of am I only ever meant to fix men and nothing else?? Some weird always the girlfriend who prepared you but never anything more??

It’s frustrating, why can’t I be the one that’s chosen for once?