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Okay a little back story... I'm 21, hubby is almost 25. I have anxiety and depression. I've almost ruined our relationships several times with the "what ifs, who is she" jealousy, child shit. We were together 7 years ago, broke up and have been together about a year ans a half now. We are engaged. We have been through hell. Family deaths, pandemic, family drama, ex drama (police and all), jealousy to the point of no trust, TTC, I was assaulted and out of work (not from him), I can't drive, bad finances, bad vehicles. Trust me, if we didn't love each other thered be no relationship... but I've realized the reason for all the second guessing is i know NO ONE with a good healthy relationship and neither does he. Its all fighting, cheating, secretly unhappy or just living together to live there or "its for the kids"... is there really a forever? A true love? A nontoxic? We are trying hard here because we make each other happy at the end of the day 💙