I had my procedure may 4th, 2019. I did not want it, it was just the best option for my child. I was 17 weeks along. I had just found out that my baby was malformed. He could not urinate into the amniotic sac and it was low on fluids. His stomach was four times the size of his head. And his head was swollen up to the size of someone 19 weeks along. I knew he was struggling and chose not to put him through anymore pain. It was very hard. My husband was in the hospital at the time. He was medically induced in a coma for a week, then he started hallucinating. But we finally got his meds in him and it got better. But i had to do it without him being there.

It was going to be our first child. I found out he was a boy due to my blood testing. I remember waking up and feeling the gush of blood. The medical staff had put my pad on wrong and i was bleeding through. Now even periods, trigger me to remember sometimes.

My inlaws helped me get my baby to bring home, instead of being tossed away at the clinic.

We now have been trying since march. With no luck. I have lost 25lbs, am eating more healthy. Got my teeth fixed. Did blood work and am fixing the areas that are needed. I am working on making my back stronger. My husband does not even understand why i break down during my period.