ever thought of running away?

i’m too young to be worried about what i want to do with my life. i just turned 21 and i feel like my life is going nowhere. i love the people i’m around but i just don’t feel like i’m progressing even though everybody else around me is. i blamed it on the pandemic for a while now but i’m still stuck in the same place, same habits. i feel like my lover doesn’t really need me and/or love me. and i’m tired of feeling like everything is unrequited. i’m tired of belittling my own feelings. i’m going to school for the sake of my parents happiness even though i’m not learning anything i want to learn. long story short i’m not happy where i am right now and all i can think about is going somewhere to find where i will be happy. sorry if this sounds too dramatic haha