I’m tired

I’m so tired. I’m a stay at home mom if 3. 7,5 and 1. The 1 year old is going through horrible terrible twos early. I don’t get any sleep. I have to do everything on my own. I’m lucky if I get 5 hours of sleep at night. I’m constantly cleaning, cause once I clean something the little one destroys it after. It’s a constant cycle.

I have to drag them all to the store grocery shopping, anywhere I go I have to take them all. The little one wants to always stand in carts won’t sit, throws fits when he can’t get up or get his way.

I’m telling you I’m to a point I’m turning angry because I do everything on my own.

My partner is an nurse works what 3 times a week? Like I get it’s hard but holy. I don’t get a break! He wants to say being a SAHM isn’t even nearly as hard as being a nurse and it’s like not even that hard.

When he is home on a day off he refuses to do anything with the kids by himself. He needs me to be there with ANYTHING! He can’t do a diaper change or even watch the kids while I run to do an errand for 10 minutes! He’ll be calling me to hurry up and get home. He can’t handle this and I have to hold down the fort. I get chronic migraines cause I’m so stressed and no sleep. I can hardly function through the day and I am starting to hate this person so much.

The days he has off I pretty much have to beg him to let me sleep in for at least two hours. If I go past two hours he will wake me cause he can’t handle.

He sleeps More then me and hardly has to do anything around here. I’m at my breaking point.

Am I wrong for this? But I think I need to leave? He’s bringing me down.

Tonight he said “ why would I let you sleep on my day off? Shouldn’t I be the one sleeping” I said “ why can’t you ever for once just want to let your partner get sleep like why!!!!

Then once he saw I was upset he said stop acting like that I’ll let you sleep 🙄

This is not love. Someone please tell me there is better😢