Something off.

I don’t want to have sex. At all. You’d think after 3 weeks of not seeing my husband(I had Covid and then he went on a trip for a week, they’ve had it planned before Covid, they have a vac house and they drove so they’re safe!) anyways. Something is off. I’m usually the high sex drive one in the relationship. I don’t even want to please myself and I haven’t in weeks. I don’t know what’s off. I want to cry when I think about having sex. Or when he asked the other day and I said no. I gave him a BJ because that didn’t bother me. I was fine with that I actually initiated that for him. But sex is just. No. Idk why I feel like this. I like the intimacy. But I’d rather just cuddle lately. He’s only been back 4 days. But we’d normally stay in bed for hours. I’m very annoyed and I don’t know why I feel like this. Honestly I have no motivation for anything. All the things I like doing feel like chores. IM SO FUCKING SICK OF FEELING LIKE THIS. Sex is an issue. But all my other feelings are too. Why 😭