I'm only staying with him to get my money back..

Me and my bf made the choice to move in together in may. We had been together for a year at that point. I'm 25 and hes 28. Well it costed me over $2000 to move in just on the deposit its self and another $1200 after that. I paid for it all myself because he didnt have anything saved. Since then we have split our bills evenly. Well when we moved in together, I found out who he truly is and I absolutely hate him.. hes emotionally and physically abusive. One of those guys who gets mad at you when they do something wrong and your upset at what they did. I cant have any difference of opinion because then I'm telling him hes wrong.. He will literally tell you hes done nothing wrong in our relationship its all been me.. when mind you hes been caught on multiple occasions asking girls on dates and or texting females inappropriately but no matter what when he gets caught "it's not cheating cause it wasnt physical" and if I keep saying its cheating then "he will go fuck someone". One day i found inappropriate shit in his phone.. Somehow it ended up with me being screamed at by him and i had to leave because no matter what I do, he will follow me around, even break down doors if I lock myself in a room. Well with me having no family I called his mom and she sent his brother to come get me because she was at the store at the time. So because i was at his parents house with his niece, nephew, mom and brother, I was apparently just there to "fuck his brother" (which i would never). So his response was to send my SISTER, pictures of his dick.. he has put his hands on me and I had to call the cops, which again is all my fault. If I have the slightest attitude or give him a look that he doesnt like, it will set him off. I will be screamed at and demolished verbally. And there's nothing I can do to stop him other than to completely submit and admit I'm wrong and hes right and that I'm sorry and I'll never do it again. I hear I'm fat and ugly almost daily, and way worse things that has made me not wanna be even slightly undressed around him. and because my mom is an addict and my father abandoned his children, obviously I'm a piece of shit that no one loves.. I've been kicked out of his car on the highway because I accidentally left my wallet at my friends and he had to turn around to get it, when we didnt even make it 2 minutes away yet .. he ruined christmas this year because we were at his moms and he changed the plans we had for the day without telling me, I was just confused and didnt understand what was happening. he proceeded to scream at me in front of his family to the point where his mom was just trying to stop him. Then sped off and left me there.. and told me I ruined his family's Christmas.. Well I guess that might be enough examples as to why I dont want to be with him.. so back to the money. Right before covid we got in a car accident in my car (he was driving and it was totaled) Which I had spent $6000 on that car but not gonna hold it against him since it was an accident.. I got a new one on my own which cost me a good amount of money. So over this year ive lost about $13,000 of my savings.. which is pretty damn close to all of it. But so I've tried to break up with him before and asked him to leave (he cant afford this place on his own, I can). And I talked to my landlord and he said since he cant prove who paid the deposit he would put both our names on the checks so neither can deposit it without the other. And hes already said if I break up with him he wont sign that check. So I would lose $2000 just so he can be an asshole. which money is kinda tight for me right now especially after Christmas.. so I'm gonna stay with him until may just so I can get my damn money back and feel a little bit more comfortable. And help me get a new place that he doesnt know where I live because he will not let me live here without him.. hes broken in before just to destroy my things.... so here I am.. faking it till i make it..

Edit: I dont have any savings to leave right now work was slow and is finally picking back up again. So I'm able to start saving again. But it's to cold to be sleeping in my car and I cant take my cats to a homeless shelter. And they are kinda my only loves I have.. I've had them for 7 years..