Hellpp

I need some help or motivation or something! I’m 20 weeks with #3. I have a 3yo and almost 2yo. I only work 2 days a week but as an anesthesia technician, so I’m constantly around dangerous gasses, running around, on my feet standing, and lifting heavy patients. I worked full time with both of my other pregnancies up until I gave birth. But now that I have 2 toddlers and pregnant, I literally HATE work. I hate leaving them, I hate being exhausted and sore all the time. And not to mention I’m constantly worried about being exposed to everything I work with. I call off like twice a month because I just can’t make myself go. 😩 I’m really trying to hold out til May so I can save some extra money, but what would you do??