Does anyone else have this?

Does anyone else have days where their boyfriend or husband is just completely rude and distant and hurtful? I’ve been asking for help all day and he just continues to be rude to me. My dad called me for the first time in weeks and my boyfriend told me to leave the room if I’m going to talk on the phone. I asked him to help me put gauze on my c section wound like he normally does and he said no, I asked him to put his underwear and socks away after I cleaned the whole room and did all the laundry, he left it on the floor and took a nap. I have to wake up and first thing I have to do is wash and sanitize the pumping accessories and then go pump which takes around an hour to do in total, he gets up and sits on his phone and makes himself food. I get to finally go and make myself food after I’m done. I ask him for help with cleaning the pump stuff so I can eat, he says no, he gets to go eat and I don’t. My PPD has been getting worse because he has not been helping me AT ALL. He hasn’t helped do laundry, or helped me clean up, or helped me clean the pump stuff, or helped make me some food when I’m hungry. We have daughters in the NICU so we are both stressed out but I would never treat him this way. When he is stuck out of gas 30 minutes away, and I drive down there to help him out, I don’t even get a thank you, and in return I get told no when I ask for help. At this point, I can’t even keep tears back because everything he’s doing is making me feel like he hates me and doesn’t want to be anywhere near me and like he would cheat on me in an instant if he wanted to, he doesn’t even feel like my boyfriend anymore, he feels like a random guy that hates me. I’m sitting next to him and I want to just get away. All he is going to do is continue to make me feel bad, continue to not help me, and just keep pushing and pushing. I have tried to talk, and we will have one good day but then it’s right back to him acting this way. He’s immature and hurtful and selfish. I can’t mentally take it anymore. Yep he’s cheated before, he’s lied before, he’s hurt me before, he’s pushed me before, he’s called me names before. All of the above. We have children and we live in a state far away from anyone. I thought we were finally happy. Now he hates me and I want to kill myself.