My Dad Died today....

I get a call from my Aunt first thing this morning telling me my daddy died just this morning. I said "what,no. Oh my God. Fuck! I'm on my way "...I rushed over to her house where he has been recovering from heart surgery & kidney disease that he had been having dialysis for. I get there, and he is lying in his bed covered up with his left eye open just enough to see his pupil. I just cry o er him "I'm so sorry daddy, I love you" It felt as though he was going to respond at any moment, but never did. He was still lukewarm to the touch. I just hugged him, and touched his check. I ran my finger over the ridge of his nose, and placed my palm on his forehead. I watched as they put him into the black body bag& tied a tag to it. Held the door open for the coroner as he took my daddy on the last ride forever. I can't believe he is gone. I've cried so much today my eyes are swollen & red. They burn, and my face feels warm. I'm sad ,numb& ,a bit out of body, in some parts of this day. I was just coming to terms my momma wasn't here anymore. She passed away 21/2 years ago from cancer. I just don't know what to do. There is such a huge cloud over me right now. (Idk where else to post this. So sorry if wrong group. I just have to get it out of my head. )