Depression & Pregnancy..

Hi ladies, I’m currently 16 week pregnant and going through a lot at the moment, lockdown being one of them and being stuck in on my own. I’m the last out of my siblings to have my first child, they’ve all had boys and what a surprise mine is a boy too (I’m absolutely thrilled because I just want to be a mum) but when I told people it was almost like I let them down.. they acted very rude and it hurt.. I also just got told my sister is 7 weeks pregnant so this is another thing that has weirdly got on my nerves as this is my first pregnancy and I feel like she only did it to take away the attention as she was adamant she was never having anymore children. Anyway I am happy for her, but I can’t help but feel depressed by everyone and everything.. I feel as if my baby is already unwanted by his family and it actually hurts me so bad.. I feel as though I’m starting to detach from the fact I’m pregnant and try to ignore it.. it’s sad that I don’t get to enjoy this how I wanted too.. has anyone else experienced bad depression before? I just want to not feel alone 😢