Just told him I don’t love him anymore

I’ve been through a lot with this guy and I tried to hold on to him. But he’s cheated he’s done me so wrong. And I guess I just got tired..

He pushed me away for two months straight telling me he doesn’t love me and he didn’t want to be with me. And I fought and fought for him to change his mind. And he still pushed. So I started to spend time alone and use the time to move on. Not to a new man but just let him go. Well on my birthday 19th he took me to dinner. I drove to his town. We went to dinner. And he rushed it. Then on my drive him I just started crying because I didn’t feel the excitement I thought I’d feel after not seeing him for so long. I realized it was over. I realized I didn’t want it anymore. And I fought with myself for 5 days and every day it began to eat away at me. Well today. I told him. I told him I didn’t love him anymore. I told him I didn’t wanna be with him I didn’t wanna take care of him anymore I felt like I had a child away at college or a man in prison. I never see him I do everything for him and he does me so wrong and doesn’t appreciate me. He immediately told me “you never had this” “it’s been done” “you’re a ho” “why would I want you when men are texting you asking for sex” “you’re an undercover ho” and blocked me. ON THE PHONE I PAY FOR I PAY THE DAMN BILL. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK. but I’m not mad about it. I’m just in shock. He tried to flip it on me. He did this he pushed me away. Finally got it and wanted to act like a child. I definitely do not love him anymore or want a relationship. I guess I just need to talk it out. 😩