Bipolar cheating husband

Back story .... husband is bipolar and in his cycle he ALWAYS has messaged other women and has planned several times to meet with them. He’s even tried to sleep with the only two friends I’ve ever had... and they left me bc of him. He swears in the 10 years we’ve been together that nothing has happened other than the obvious inappropriate texts.

This last time (about 4 months ago) he swore he’d get therapy and do whatever he needs to do to keep his family together. That obviously didn’t work and I was left on the meeting with the couples therapist alone . I’m going by myself every two weeks like usual trying to get through the issues that our relationship has caused.

Forward to yesterday when I see him messaging a gal from town trying to go “teach her photography “ she didn’t ask he just keeps offering to meet up. My problem is not her.... she’s got no idea what attention he’s looking for. I’ve honestly tried my best to hold it in until therapy on Monday, but he knew something was wrong. He kept asking and I offered him to go to therapy and find out if he really cared what was wrong. That turned into him yelling at me that he doesn’t need therapy there’s nothing wring with him and what he’s doing. MIND YOU I didn’t even tell him at this point what has been bothering me. It finally comes out after him yelling at me and then it goes to another level. He starts screaming at me how worthless I am and that I just need to do my family a favor and kill myself. I start balling of course bc that shit hurts to hear and locked myself in the bathroom PISSED OFF. Then I hear him yelling at me that he’s calling CPS on me for child abandonment bc I went to the bathroom while my daughter was in her walker. Very manipulative. Very controlling. Even faked a phone call to them.

Everyone says to leave and start a new life but it’s not that easy. My business is in his name. My vehicle is in his name. My home is in his name. He’s clearly trying to use my kids against me. I’m lost. I’m friendless. I’m lonely. I’m stronger than this... but where’s the strength hiding?