I just need to vent

I’m 19 and I understand that I have so much of my life left to live and make mistakes but I was just let go randomly from a really great job and of course those stimulus checks are not going to cut it I have bills and no I don’t have a degree yet but I honestly feel like I’m nothing. I hate that companies make you sign a waiver that they can let you go at any point for any reason and they’re the only ones being supported by the government right now? But they’re not even able to hire people I’ve been trying to find a decent job and I’m only hearing back from scammers on indeed and jobs that pay by commission, asking for you to put some money down and that they’ll give it right back and also other jobs that say they’re paying like $60 an hour for an assistant and ask you to download telegram so they can ask you to commit fraud and steal your financial information on an app where it’s hard to track. This fucking sucks. It’s been 12 days and I’ve been waking up early, applying to just about every job I see I’ve been crying constantly when no one is around because I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I’m sort of antisocial so I don’t have any friends honestly and I feel like such a disappointment. My boyfriend is the love of my life he’s the only reason I’m not thinking about suicide he’s given me so much love I just don’t want to put this on him too. This is my problem and I have to deal with it. Fortunately we haven’t moved in together yet. But I also started thinking about my nephew that passed a year ago earlier this month and I stayed up all night crying and I just feel like I might be losing my mind. I feel like my wires are snapping