Feeling defeated 😔

I’m 12dpo and negative tests since 10dpo. I got a faint line at 9dpo but I’m thinking it was just an indent because I’ve had nothing since. I had some pink bleeding at 5dpo and 9dpo after sex which never happens and quite weird. My nipples are super sensitive, and the veins in my boobs have become really prominent. I usually get sore boobs before my period but deep in the tissue not my nipples, and I usually have spotting at 12dpo but nothing so far. I FEEL pregnant but I don’t feel like it’s going to happen. It just seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant except me 😢