Hey ladies so im in a dilemma and before I say this ima say dont be rude or judgemental as I wouldnt be to you Im looking to vent and am open to good advice so please be respectful.....SO anyways lol lets get back to it!!

So cut to the chase...im in a relationship which started fast but he was one of my highschool sweethearts the other one was my baby father(daughter) and this is the triangle. Ive know them for over 10 years but my bd more of course and we have this love cosmic connection like we are best friends and hes like the only guy that can calm me down when my anxiety and emotion trigger but he has this hold over me like I cant get him outta my head and like I just want him so bad and it kills me I love him more than anything but of course our relationship wasnt perfect and he always knows what to say and hes now moved on which have i too with my sons father of 5 years which turned domestic(ugh thats another story lol but this not about him) so now that it ended i reconciled with my new bf and things are going great and im falling for him and we are planning our future together but of course he has many flaws but im trying to accept them but knowing myself idk if I can and it pushes me away so now im starting to have doubts like should I just be alone and focus on myself or am I just scared? But then here comes my addictive baby father playing knight in shining armor but he has a girlfriend but wants me to its like we are meant to be together but we are trapped in these relationships but then its like I dont want to put myself through it again so im just so confused on what to do any suggestions?