My wife has been romantically cold since our first pregnancy 4 years ago. We dont cuddle, she doesnt make time or have time if I try to be romantic. We have been to couples therapy which she doesnt participate in and avoids if possible.

You get the idea. I'm lonely in this relationship and she knows it so dont tell me to talk to her. With all the therapy and talks we have she knows. In fact she resorts to sex/gender shaming or anger if it's even mentioned.

Point is I dont cheat, we have children so leaving is harder than I'd like but I think that is my only choice. I know I will be attacked and belittled for wanting intimacy. I crave emotional and physical but it will be reduced to me being a horny man and call into question my parenting. Quite frankly I want healthy mutual love and respect yet it gets boiled down to just wanting sex which to be honest has messed with my head.

I'm not really asking for advice I'm just venting. I see all these different boards on here and it seems like a safe place to ask women what they think so feel free to comment especially if you have something nice to say.