I am self isolating right now because I came into contact with someone that tested positive for COVID. So I am 5 days into my 10 days isolation and I am really struggling with it mentally. I need to be able to go for walks, go into work, and all of those normal day to day routine stuff for my mental health. And this 3rd national lockdown is getting to me.

So not only am I isolating so cannot leave the house, I am on my period. I am getting seriously hormonal and emotional this time around with everything else that’s going on.

I’ve broken down in tears twice, the first time was just upset at the situation, and the second time (which happened earlier this evening) was because of something my partner said that really annoyed me, I admittedly overreacted, but it frustrates me that it seems like he doesn’t listen. So jt was tears of frustration. I’ve taken myself off into the our bedroom, while he’s still watching Tv, just to try and get some space because I have no other option, I can’t go outside and get fresh air.

He’ll be coming to bed soon and now I’m sat here crazy anxious that this lockdown and isolation etc, is forcing us together more but we’re drifting and I don’t know how to fix things. Neither of us are great communicators, it comes out as anger or frustration, or tears, rather than opening up about how we feel. And I am trying hard but it takes effort right and I don’t always get it right and neither does he.