Help me out! Give me some pin pointers

I know this may not be period,or pregnancy related,but maybe you can help me.

Growing up I always been in special ed classes. I draw a disability check due to my learning since I can't comprehend very well. I struggle everyday trying to be the best mom.

I also don't have my own transportation which I tend to get bully over and especially since my husband and I are living with my mom due to reasons.

I find it hard to read the Bible and I struggle to know what's it's about. I have been studying the Bible in different sections,but my main concern is. I don't know if I'm really saved?😥 I did talked to God one day and after that and my body felt loose and I can't describe what else since it was before Christmas.

I'm just wondering if God saved me! I want to get baptized,but they say you have to get saved first before getting baptized.

I have so many people telling me I need to get in church and etc. Most of them doesn't go to church, and they rather bully and judge you.

I just feel like I'm not ready to go to church since I have a lot on my plate.