I'm a FTM and my son has finally reached toddler stage (15 months) and I completely suck. I have no idea what I'm doing. I always wanted 4 kids but I realized I can hardly handle one. 😭

IDK how you super moms do this with multiple small children. With only one I'm about to collapse between the fevers, teething, sleep regression, refusing meals, too much TV (extreme guilt), dirty house, and neglecting my career when signed into the company's network. I have hit an all time low these past few days. I want my son to have siblings but if I can barely handle one how can I have another baby. I'm also afraid of PPD/baby blues which I've suffered from. Besides my horrible mental health my son is my greatest purest joy and the best thing ever happened to me. I love him more than life itself ❤❤❤❤ so why am I feeling this way?