Jealous.

I’m at work today and my phones blowing up. I go to lunch and it’s a bunch of texts from my sister in law & my good friend. Both of them sending me ultra sounds and heart beat videos. Let me start off by saying I am so happy for them. Beyond words, they don’t know we are having infertility issues because I haven’t told anyone. So they’re not being insensitive or anything they’re genuinely sharing with me.

But I’m at work tears in my eyes because that won’t be me any time soon. I have to accept that. We go 03/09 for our infertility consultation, and start our journey. And I’m so sad over it. I just need to feel like I’m not alone. This whole thing has ruined my relationship with my husband and made things difficult. He hasn’t been his normal self since finding out about his sperm causing our infertility issues. So now I feel alone even more because if I bring It up he feels like it’s his fault.