Another month another chemical

After 3 years we had another chemical pregnancy this makes 3 chemicals. I feel numb I cried on my fiancé’s shoulder earlier but it doesn’t feel real yet. How is this something I expected coming when I went to bed last night and am experiencing today. All I have going through my head right now is when will I get my rainbow? What do I need to do to get pregnant? We try everything and nothing seems to work. Baby dust to all you ladies trying hopefully this coming month will bring a miracle