Please excuse the long post, but I’m at my wits end.

My maternity pay ends in 2 months and my partner is understandably worrying about money. He wants us to move into his parents for a few years to save but I honestly can’t think of anything worse. Even the thought of it makes my anxiety spiral and makes me feel sick to my stomach.

Pros:

- save money

Cons:

- my anxiety will worsen leading to my pp depression getting worse

- won’t feel comfortable

- no space or time on my own

- won’t be able to watch what I want on the tv, do what I want, eat what I want etc etc

- 4 dogs means lots of fur, baby can’t be on the floor

- his mum is very “aw poor you” to him so I know I will never get any help with anything

- I breastfeed and won’t feel comfortable feeding in front of them

- they’re very stuck in their ways and opinionated on parenting etc

- house isn’t the cleanest or tidiest

- 2 hours bus journey just to get into the town

- can’t have my parents, sister or friends round

- if I’m feeling low or I’m unwell, no one to help me out

- have to give up my small business

- have to give up my CAT

- loose my independence

- will take 2 hours at least to get to my 1927161 hospital appointments

- won’t feel comfortable to shower or wash my clothes

- will end up spending 24/7 upstairs in the bedroom

- will have to give away all the furniture I’ve spent years building up

- his younger brother is up all night playing video games and his shouting will keep us and baby awake

- will be worried about baby keeping everyone else awake

- won’t be able to ‘argue’ with my partner without everyone having a say in it

Someone please tell me I’m not being an ass? It’s really stressing me out 😭