I hate this!

Next month will be 1 year ttc. I'm 34. I'm so worried this won't happen. I'm into my 2nd Clomid cycle and now my husband has been unable to perform. That's with Viagra and a cockring. I also found out this morning that I've been testing at wrong time of day. I changed to FMU due to it being so hard to not pee or drink for 2 hrs. Plus Mira says FMU. Well come to find out I'm supposed to test 2x per day. These mira wands are 45.00 for just 20. I can't afford testing 2x a day. Especially bc I don't have reg. Cycles. I'm sick of reading posts by women freaking out bc they don't want to b preg. But got preg.