I came here because I’m not even sure who to ask and I’m intrigued😰. I’m a woman, I’ve always been into men, yet about 4 weeks ago I met someone, woman as well, that just caught my attention in a different way than any woman has.

We work together so I enjoyed being around her, in fact.. I WOULD LOOK FORWARD TO SEE HER EVERYDAY, and it felt so much like a crush, I just didn’t believe it myself bcs I’ve never been into women🤔.

A little less than a week ago, I was told I was going to be transferred and for some reason, very deep inside me, I was so upset that I was going to be away from her (let me just remind you.. I’ve only known her for FOUR WEEKS💀).

We had a little going away party, we were drinking and dancing, and then BOOM! we kissed🙈. It was one of the most passionate kisses I’ve ever had in my life, I didn’t even have such an exciting kiss like that in my 2 year relationship with my exboyfriend. 😅

Next day I found out that they were going to transfer someone else instead of me. I was soooooo happy that I was staying🙌🏼.

We had another encounter and I was scared bcs I don’t knooww how to.. touch a woman? I never even done it to myself. I wanted to please her bcs otherwise I didn’t want to be pleased😒, but I also didn’t want to fuck up and then she would stop talking to me because I didn’t know how to do it😣. She did tell me she rather do to me bcs that pleases her enough plus it’s hard for her to get comfortable enough with someone for them to touch her but... She ended up letting herself go and GUIDED me through it and taught me what she liked, I admit I never saw myself touching another woman bcs tbh I was never intrigued by it, I’ve always thought vaginas are ugly af, anyway.. ngl it was very rewarding to see her enjoy herself and then her letting me know I did a good job. :’)

She slept over and I just really enjoyed waking up next to her.☺️

NO JOKE ever since.. I can’t stop thinking about her.. I’m crushing ugly.. like I get nervous around her and even jealous when other women or MEN are around her, cuz she’s bi.. it’s like double competition Idk, I guess I got a toxic mindset, but that’s besides the point🙄.

Here is the thing...

What I’m confused on is.. what am I? I don’t like any other girl AT ALL, I just want her, she’s the most beautiful girl I’ve met with the best personality ever. I feel such a strong INTIMATE connection with her I probably have never felt before, I still find men attractive unlike women I wouldn’t be with one unless it’s her.. I wouldn’t touch any other unless it’s her.

I told my brother (he’s the only one that knows) and he asked me: so are you gay now? Since when?

Idk if I am, because I only want her, other than that.. men would be the way to go.

So what am I?