I promised god...

I’m 30 years old with pcos. I’ve taken clomid, ferema, ovidrel, done timed intercourse, just shy of

IVF

. I’ve never gotten the joy of feeling the rush of emotions of seeing two lines on a pregnancy test. I’ve never been able to confidently pee on a stick and know I wasn’t going to just see 1 line. I was so used to rejection! I was so used to no. For 10 years I peed on sticks and never once had a positive. On March 09 I was 11 dpo and I laid in bed at 11pm and I told god if he blessed me with a child I would tell any and everyone about this moment. From that moment I felt horrible cramps in my stomach. I kept my hands planted on my stomach and I swear I could feel power coming from my mouth through my hands into my stomach. I begged him and I asked for this blessing. The very next day I had a sore throat. I thought my fiancé brought covid home from Vegas so I took off work to go get a covid test. When I sat in my car, my cramps kicked up again but I just readjusted myself and kept on. After getting my covid test I decided I needed medication for the day to fix whatever cold/flu I had. I debated with myself on if I should get a pregnancy test. I asked the young lady did she have any pink dye test and she was like no. I told her never mind and I just wanted the meds. She looked over everything one more time and said oh wait, I do have one. I said well okay you can add it on. I got home sat on the toilet, peed on the stick and sat it down on the counter. My fiancé started a new job and was telling me about his day for a good 4 to 5 minutes before he finally said hold on for a second. I remembered I peed on a stick and reached for it and when I say my heart dropped. I saw two lines. I instantly hung up the phone and turned on my flash light to get a better look because somebody is playing a trick on me. I cried! I called gods name and thanked him. I jumped up and barely wiped my lady parts because I needed more test. I went to the same family dollar and I said I want all the test you have. She gave me a look like well did you just find out something. I paid for them and ran out the door. I muscled up enough pee to store some in a cup and test on several sticks. All were positive. Now why am I telling you this?

Today I’m 13 dpo. My test lines aren’t getting darker. My beta is 9. I know I’m early as I’m only 13 dpo but I told god that if he blessed me I would tell anyone and everyone what he did for me. Let’s just say I’m far from a spiritual person but I tried my hand at praying and it finally was answered. After 10 years of never having a pregnancy scare. I used to hate reading peoples stories about how to have faith because now they’re pregnant and just wonder why can’t this be me. I don’t want to push religion on anyone because that wasn’t what I wanted but I made a promise to god and I want to keep it.

Updated 3/14 - God continues to bless me. We went in for our second hcg beta test and our babies hcg levels were a 9 two days ago. Wel they are at 17 today. Doctors confirmed that I am not miscarrying nor is it an ectopic. We are so blessed and I know God has his hand on our child. I will continue to pray and ask God to see us through this pregnancy! Thank you for everyone’s support and comments. I hope to be some inspiration to someone who was in the same position as me! Keep your faith and hope up!

My very first test (above)

The additional test I purchased about 30 mins later (above)

My test today at 13 dpo (above)

Glory to god for this blessing he’s given my fiancé and I.

3/17 Test from today 4 weeks and 3 days. It’s definitely darker! Thank you God for hearing me!

3/25 update

I ended up having a house fire and miscarrying the baby. Although I’m extremely hurt, I still ask god to watch over and protect my baby. I enjoyed the experience and only hope to be able to conceive again one day. Thank you everyone for reading further and your many blessings. Hopefully one day I can update this about how my rainbow baby came about! I love you all!

3/31 update

Went to the doctor again after my er visit. The Er told me my levels were 192 but a few days later, my levels are 629. Needless to say my doctor doesn’t feel this is a viable pregnancy so tomorrow I will be getting MTX shot. We fully intend on trying again afterwards. Today I would be 6.4. Definitely hard to get through but I prepared myself for worst and I know god will guide this next baby right where it should be.

4/12 update

I received my shot on 4/2. On Friday 4/10 the shot started to work. I began to bleed and also have stomach pains. I had some clots pass. The feeling of the shot is tiredness, fullness or bloatedness and constipation. This is driving me insane. I can’t wait until it’s over.