I want to be loved

I’m having a really sad day and need a little insight

A little backround, end of November my bf ended things and it hurt bad. We had gone through a lot together between the lockdown, me having a surgery, him having a major surgery, a car accident, and lots of stressful stuff. I guess all that stress is what killed the relationship. Then a few weeks ago two former coworkers got worried. One just put something on fb while the other messaged me wondering if I heard anything from him. I figured he was probably fine as his mom would have been vocal on fb if anything happened. And I never heard anything after that. I saw fb posts from birthday so he was fine. Really the past few weeks I didn’t feel much for him.

I was trying to move on with someone else but he ghosted me a week ago. We never even met, we just talked. I was disappointed but I really never developed feelings for him so it didn’t hurt.

Now today I wake up really sad. I miss my ex. I started crying earlier. I kinda want to cry now. I just feel really alone all of a sudden.

Idk if I miss him or just the feeling of being loved. Nothing really changed except the guy that ghosted me. So why do I miss my ex so much right now?

What can I do? I’ve been alone for months now so I know I’m ok on my own. I try to hangout with people when I can. I don’t nope around all sad, I do stuff. How can I stop feeling alone though?