He thinks it’s PPD

I had a really hard pregnancy.

From severe HG to relationship problems its like I couldn’t catch a break. Took 3 years for us to get pregnant and the happiness was gone quick after my SO accused me that the baby prob wasn’t his. We fought often and I barely shed a tear. I was more mad at everything I was going through.

Now my babygirl is a week old and I can’t stop crying. My SO keeps asking if I think I have postpartum depression yet he doesn’t see his actions are making me down and feel this way.

A few months before my daughter was born he kept saying he hoped I wouldn’t act differently, saying he thinks I’d leave him after or cheat on him. Yet exactly a month before my daughter was born he started acting funny and being secretive with his phone, hanging with people he hasn’t hung out with in years because the things they are into...I asked him if he’s met someone and he keeps saying No, yet his actions lately and the late nights coming home while I was pregnant make me think different.

The night I went into labor I have no idea where he was. I didn’t even let him know baby was coming until they scheduled my csection, being nice I let him come but I really wanted to be alone.

He’s shown little interest in our daughter- he’s spent more time in our basement the past week then he has in the 9 months i was pregnant.

I guess he’s going to a friends house now-

Must be nice to enjoy his Friday while

I sit home and recover from a csection. 🙃

I don’t really know where I’m going with this post. Just needed to write this down and focus for a minute

Update-

I guess I’ve come to realize what my daughter and I are worth to him. I took a ten min break in my room to just cry and think and he comes in with my daughter, hands her to me and says he’s leaving to go make music for a few hours. Lol, ok. Hope you get a rap deal worth it cuz I’m moving on with my daughter.