Cold Feet

AHHH! Okay, I need to tell someone so I’m blurting it out on here because I don’t know anyone in person on here, at least I don’t think. I’ll just share anon 😂

But anyways, my younger sister is getting married on this weekend. I don’t really know the guy because she’s going to college in a different state and that’s where they met. But lately, I’ve been feeling something off about them getting married.

I figured it was nothing and just me being biased because I don’t know him well.

But yesterday night, I saw my sister and asked if she was excited about the wedding and she said yeah. I asked if she was nervous and she said, “yeah I feel like the nerves are finally setting in. I’m nervous about the day but I’m also nervous because it’s a big commitment!” So I basically was like yeah it is a big commitment, it’s for the rest of your life, etc. But the comment about the nerves was kinda an interesting answer to me.

So as I was leaving, I had this really strong feeling that I needed to tell her that it’s okay if she changes her mind about the wedding. It’s a crazy thought so I called my other sister on my way home asking if I should call her and tell her that. She said I should and she has been also feeling off about them getting married.

So when I got home, I decided to call her. I told her to go in private and I basically told her that it’s okay if she changes her mind about the wedding and if she postpones or something.

Then she told me “it’s crazy that you’re telling me because I’ve been having second thoughts.” Then she told me everything, which I’m not going to write everything out here. She also told me that she was looking for a sign. So I am so glad I decided to give her a call about it.

We talked a lot about it and basically how she’s like “but everyone spent all this money on me” and I’m like “who cares! No one is going to care. Money is money and all anyone is going to care about is your happiness.”

And yes, she regrets not talking to her fiancé about anything yet, but I can’t even imagine being in her shoes.

We’re supposed to have dinner with the groom’s parents tonight and I’m just sitting here in anticipation wondering if/when it’s going to be cancelled. & hoping that she’s going to do what she needs to.

I just hope she doesn’t go through with it because that’s what seems easiest and because of money. I want to tell her she needs to call it off ASAP or tell our parents so they know and can help, but it’s her thing to decide when so I won’t.

JUST PRAY FOR HER EVERYONE! That she’ll have the strength & courage to do what she needs to for her happiness.