Is anyone in total disbelief ?

I thought this would go away as my pregnancy progressed but it hasn’t at all. 16+4 w/#4 now. I’ve been sorting through my son’s baby clothes and getting rid of what I didn’t like to have it ready and easy to go through for this next baby. Arranging it between gender neutral and boy stuff etc. I’ve been buying little things here and there, making a blanket, even made a big purchase of an extendable stroller. I made a registry of stuff I’ll need, like pacifiers, bottles, stuff I need to replace from the last baby. I feel like I’m doing it all for someone else’s baby.

I feel this baby moving. I listen to its heartbeat once or twice a week. I have had one ultrasound, many appointments, I’m getting thicker in the middle, I’ve been super sick.

And yet I just don’t feel like I’m going to have another baby at all. I felt a lot like this with my second BUT I didn’t even prep for her! I had NOTHING bought or ready for her when she was born. I’ve been actively prepping for this baby!

I have no idea when this will actually feel real to me