I still love my husband....

I have never been more stuck on my feelings. Me and my husband have been together for 12 years and I the last couple years have been hell. Everything has been so hard. We lost our baby at 3 months, then our marriage started going down hill. He started suffering from depression. Everything was so hard. I decided I just couldn't do it anymore and served him divorce papers.... Well recently me and my husband went through something HORRIBLE together. We both almost died... I didn't think we would survive and in that moment... I realized I still love him. I'm still in love with him. We went through that together and he stayed by my side holding my hand even though we were separated. I remembered why I married him. I wanted to take time to assess my feelings and it's been weeks since that near death experience and I still feel the same. I love that man. Idk when we lost our way but I want to still be with him. What do I do? What do I tell my husband?

Also plz no religious advice