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My husband and I got into an arguement this week. He attacked me.

Physically: he hit me in the body and head, choked me, threw me, pulled and pushed me.

Verbally/mentally: he put me down for everything, called me by my maiden name, threatened to hurt himself and me (which he was already doing), but threatened to be worse.

Sexually: he raped me. He forced me to give him oral to where I was choking and vomiting. He pressed my head down between the footboard and mattress bruising up my forehead and slammed dry fingers into my anus with unkept fingernails. He sliced me, tore open hemorrhoids. Everytime I've had pooped since then it hurts and there's blood. It's been 3 days. Around my anus, it looks and feels bruised. He raped my vagina and I was shaking and kept begging him to stop "please don't do this". After I called him a rapist. He responded with "you didn't say no". Yes I did, I begged you not to. I begged you to stop. I begged you to see me as a person. He responded "nope, I was just taking what is mine".

Now he acts like nothing happened and we're good. I'm not