Empty Sacs and Misscarrages

I started to ttc at 29 in 2019. It took me almost 2 years to become pregnant which I found out in Jan 2021. Once I went to the doctors they told me I was a little over 2 months but the but the sac was empty. I can’t explain the emptiness and anger that came over me when we did the ultra sound and heard complete silence. From that point on I had to start my grieving process. Even going back to the docs several trips After seeing pregnant women just made me sad.

To be honest this whole process has made my heart hard towards women. I never had a abortion nor unprotected sex, so when months went by I would ask women “how do I get pregnant I’ve been trying for months” they respond with “ I got pregnant my first try or go to doc.” No one besides my brother told me it’s hard and takes a long time. So once I became pregnant it was the best gift that ended to soon.” Now more women keep popping up pregnant like it was so simple and no complications and it’s like man why didn’t my baby make it.

Once I began to tell my family and friends what happened they too said they dealt with miscarriages. My anger towards women comes from the secrets they hold that we all may be going thru also. Why when a woman has her baby she never talks about how hard it was to conceive, how uncomfortable pregnancy, how to deal with child birth, or if they had miscarriages in the past. If it wasn’t for this website I would have lashed out online about the non support. So I thank Glow for its community. But I do feel as people we need to be more open about life obstacles so others no they ain’t the only ones .