Surprise

So my husband and I had an accident in march, and I took the plan B pill. Of course my dumb a$$. Thought it worked I was having spotting here and there so I didn’t think nothing of it. I took a pregnancy test to prove my mother wrong it came out positive. I ran to the hospital I’m 6 weeks, but I’ve been drinking and taking my antidepressant so I’m afraid I might have harmed the baby. I already have 4 kids and me and my husband are not ready for 5, and this is real hard for us at the moment. I don’t believe in abortion, but at the moment I’m still bleeding, and we honestly can not bring another baby into this world. I am so conflicted because I do want to keep the baby, but I know we can’t idk anymore. My husband doesn’t want it and I know its my body but this is real serious. I need help 🥺