My wish came true... not when I really wanted it to but I’m still super grateful

So baby number two is on the way. Idk why I took a test, my period wasn’t late yet but I had a gut feeling. Normally before my cycle I’ll wear a pad before bed and this was going to be the second night doing that. But I took a test maybe a week before and it was negative so I just said whatever... I guess I’m not. I got drunk two days after I took the first test and the next day I sipped some wine. But the day my instinct to take another test kicked in I said “it’s okay it’s gonna be negative anyways” so I just waited for my shower to warm up and got off the toilet, I thought I was going crazy when I saw the two lines. I even said maybe it’s too foggy in here 😭 but I immediately panicked and showed my bsf who was visiting and she started laughing and smiling and asking if I was serious 😭 I woke my husband up and I showed him and he asked if it was a prank 😭 like no you guys, it’s 1 am... why would I do this now. I cried ofc because I was drinking even though I was unaware of the false negative and I felt horrible for days after. I thought to myself more about how I could’ve harmed this little defenseless being than I thought about what my family would say. I went and got two more tests, this time they were digital, and boom... baby number two. Crazy thing is that I prayed for this baby, but I prayed for a baby for next year when my husband comes back from deployment so I don’t have to raise another newborn by myself for 4 months. But again we’re on God’s time. I know many of you might not find my post interesting, I just needed to get a little something off my chest.