I was happy until he pointed out my flaws again 😔

I’ve been losing weight recently. I bought a smaller pair of clothes when I was at my heaviest that I never thought I would fit into. I tried them on today and was shocked that they actually fit, not perfectly but they fit. I was so happy I almost cried. I showed my boyfriend and he did say well done on your progress, and then “you should be doing these exercises for your arms” and it just crushed the happiness I had. I’ve lost 40 pounds so far, I have a lot more to go I know but I was proud that I have made some progress. I have always had big arms no matter my size, I know I should be doing more to exercise them but i just wanted to be happy for a moment, I just wanted to enjoy fitting into these pants that I thought I never would.

And then I stop and think about how he says I should get my eyebrows tattooed because they are so faint without makeup, how I look better with makeup, how I need to go to the dentist and get my bottom teeth fixed, how I should eat less and exercise more. I know I need to be healthier and I am trying and I just can’t seem to lose the weight fast enough. He’s much better looking than me, he’s fit and would be considered attractive to most women. He says he loves me so much all the time and he loves me for me and everything I am, but when he keeps making these comments about my appearance it just makes me feel like I will never be good enough.

I know I’m not at my final goal yet, but I’m trying and I just wanted to enjoy the milestone that I reached and now I’m sobbing like an idiot.

I wish I never let myself get so heavy, I have no excuses, but I’m trying to work on it now and just wanted to enjoy the moment but now all I can think about is my big fat stupid arms