Help me please

I have feelings for a friend,,, and I truly do not know what to do. I know that the feeling isn’t mutual,, and you know what? That’s okay. All I want is to not have these feelings anymore,, so that I can go back to being normal friends with them again. Of course,, they are not aware of how I feel, and they won’t ever know.

But the problem is I’m having a really hard time getting over this,,,, I keep convincing myself that it’s okay,, and that I am no longer bothered,, but that is so far from the truth. No matter what I do about how I feel,,, I’m tearing my friend ship apart, I feel. I tell them (which I don’t want to),, and I make everything worse/awkward. I do not want that. I don’t tell them,, and keep my feelings bottled up,, it makes me want to be more distant because I genuinely do not know how to handle this situation. I’m so confused,, and I feel like a terrible friend.

And it really hurts bc I care about them so much and all I want is to be friends with them but I can’t control my feelings,,, I want these feelings to go away. I don’t know what to do.

I hung out with them recently and they always make an effort to talk to me and keep the conversation alive,, but I always feel awkward.

Does anyone have some advice? I really need it ://