I was very unhappy when he announced he wanted to go into the military. I purposely avoided dating military men so when he made up his mind that he wanted to go into it after a year of being together I was a little upset internally. He signed a 6 year contract.

I kept an open mind and supported him positively through the whole process of going in, enough to where he forgot that I didn’t like the idea until it was mentioned to other family.

He’s been gone for three weeks and I am completely miserable. I have my 2 year old daughter to distract me but I feel like I’m on auto pilot and am just trying to pass time. That’s no way to live but I cant get out of this depression. He doesn’t get back until October and I’m worried how I’ll be able to make it til then emotionally.

I’ve already been in therapy for years and still continue to go, but the days I don’t go are still miserable.

I don’t want to hear any “you just deal with it” or “you just gotta get through it” cause I know. But I don’t know if I can. Im not saying I can’t so I’m going to cheat or leave him. Im saying I can’t as in, I can’t be healthy mentally. Im worried he will get home finally and I will be completely destroyed. We’ve worked so hard the passed 1 1/2 years to help me get out of very bad depression.

Im sure some of you think it’s stupid that I need a man or need someone else, but when you’re actually clinically depressed it’s very hard to care about yourself. I wasn’t doing it for him, but having him here helped. Now I feel like even when he gets back I’ll be so unhappy and it will ruin our relationship.