Depression advice

I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression. And everyone in my life acts like I’m always in a “bad mood”.

I have been having a hard time mentally and emotionally because of a bad breakup. My bf that I was with for a very long time ( and seriously thought we were gonna move in together this year. And I thought he was the man I was going to marry) broke up with me a few months ago. I am so heartbroken. He started dating someone else and it makes it even worse for my mental health.

Today, I have been laying around crying. Just in an awful mood today. I went into the kitchen to get something to eat and my

Mom asked me what was wrong and I said “I don’t want to talk about it “

Then she started yelling that I’m a miserable person to be around. And no one wants to be around me. All I do is lay around and cry. And she said that because I’m so miserable that’s probably why my “ex bf” broke up with me.

When she said the part about my ex breaking up with me, that was super sensitive for me and I snapped!

I almost broke the plate I was eating off of I don’t know what came over me, but when she said that, I just lost it.

We argued.

Now I am laying in my bed crying.

Can anyone give me any advice ???

I just feel so lonely.