Pray for my rainbow 🌈

I’m 5w4d now, expected due date is Feb 5th 2022. I’ve had a previous loss at 20 weeks in Feb 2021. Last time when I was pregnant I told the news immediately to my family and friends. I was genuinely excited for my first baby, made milestone pictures and was totally on cloud nine all the time. This time my husband and I decided not to tell anyone until we see the first scan and a heartbeat. It’s all like we don’t want to enjoy this and ruin it for us. Also my anxiety is over the roof and I can’t stop thinking what could all go wrong. Does this get better?? My angel baby was due on June 19, May be that’s the reason I don’t want to enjoy and forget her. I just wish I could be happy. Please pray for my little bean 🙏🏻

Side note : My husband ordered this pregnancy test with weeks indicator from UK store (we live in the US) It is so cool and reassuring