We tried for a baby the entire time and it just didn’t happen

I was with my husband 11 years. We tried for a baby the entire time and it just didn’t happen. I was so depressed I cried many times and just felt less than a woman because I couldn’t do one of the normal things I’m supposed to be able to do as a woman. It hurt so bad. But having my husband there to support me and somewhat make me feel normal, made things okay.

In the meantime my husband and I both got healthy lost a ton of weight. In 2019 we started IVF our marriage got rocky after the weight loss. I guess he started to get more attention and felt like he could do better. We had a long talk and he swore this was what he wanted. I asked so many times if he was sure because the IVF doctor said I had to remove my tubes and I didn’t want to get stuck not being able to have kids at all if he changed his mind after my procedure. So I had my procedure, he didn’t go with me and I was unable to reach him until the next day. We lived together… when he came home the day of my procedure he said he was done with our marriage.

I later find out he has another woman pregnant moved with her and proposed to her with a ring from my jewelry guy. This was about 6 months ago I continued with my IVF used a friend as a donor and here I am 5 weeks pregnant. I cry a lot because I never thought I would have this. I has been quite the journey but I’m here and I’m expecting to see my baby in January.