My cat died.

I've lost a lot of people. My dad died last November. And my meemaw 5 years ago. I've watched people overdose before and die right in front of me. I've known several people that have killed themselves. I lost my mom to drugs and alcohol. They didn't kill her yet, but I lost her. 2 of my sisters have died. I've seen so many people go, but nothing hurts like watching an animal go. I've had some very good dogs. My boy Sage died of a brain tumor when I was in middle school. I cried for months. My first cat, Buddy, died one night before church and we never found out why. Today my cat Baby died. She was my boyfriend's cat first. I lived with his family for a month in last semester and fell in love with this cat. My first night there, I was crying cause I'd just been kicked out of my grandma's house, and Baby came in and slept on my chest. Very annoyingly licked my face when I sobbed. When my boyfriend started sleeping upstairs with me (he wasn't allowed before by his mom. We're only 17) Baby would sleep between us. When I was cooking, she would crawl up me and try to sit on my shoulders like a freaking bird. And she followed my boyfriend everywhere. As soon as he walked in to the room she'd be around his ankles. He'd pick her up and coo and kiss at her while we all laughed at him (he's always claimed he hates cats 😒😂). Baby was actually just a baby. Only a year or so old. No more than 2 years. My boyfriend and I were going to keep her when we moved away. She was going to be our cat. She already was. Baby was such an amazing cat. So lovable. You could always count her to be there. Something you can't find in a lot of people. She really was like my baby. I didn't get to say goodbye, seeing as I'm back with my grandmother. There's been so much loss in my life, but I never thought I'd be hit this hard because of a cat. She was like our baby. She was always with us. She walked with us across the street to the bus stop in the morning, or to the car. I shared ice cream with her and gave her belly rubs. She was my baby. I am a very sensitive person. I'm a tiny bit of a wreck right now. I'd hate to see what'd I be like if I actually lost a child. I miss my cat.