1.5 days without messaging me.

Yesterday my boyfriend went the whole day without messaging me on his day off. He called me once for about 5 minutes in the afternoon to tell me he was extremely busy yesterday because he went out with his guy friend.

His priorities have become so fucked up. He'd rather spend all day with the same guy than see his gf or children. The children are with his previous partner but still its fucked up he hasn't seen them all week. Yesterday he went to see them late at night for 2 hours AFTER spending the whole day with his friend. He told me to mind my business when I told him this. It's hard not to notice through. We were suppose to see each other yesterday too and he totally forgot. Never seems to have time for me but always with this friend. I know the friend and can't stand him.

I vented to him yesterday in that 5 minute conversation how I am tired of always initiating first everything (conversations, dates, everything.) He said okay I'll start contacting you first tomorrow (meaning today) and that didn't happen. It's already 11:35AM and still no message. He enters work at 11 so I know he had time to sit on the bus/train and look at his phone.

He is always on his phone and has a smart watch. It hurts he always responds and seems to have active conversations with his friend and not with me. I am extremely nice and forgiving and I think that is part of the problem here. He realized he can get away with so much and i will forgive him eventually. He has never cheated or atleast not that I know off.

I feel so alone in this relationship. We went through so much togethor and still got through it that is why it's so hard go let go. It'll be me admitting I wasted precious time of my life on somebody I knew I should have left a long time ago. It has gotten to a point where I'm the only reason we are togethor....

He says he loves me, cares about me, am the only girl he has never cheated on(bullshit) but his actions say otherwise