Y’all I think I’m done done...

My whole 4 year relationship has been a fucking roller coaster. 2 years in, he left me and got back with his ex fiancé then I fucking took him back when that didn’t go his way. It was only 2 weeks. I forgave his ducking ass. He left me again in October and apparently talked to her then too “apologizing”. I took him back. He was also talking to another girl. I was pregnant with our second and emotional and felt no other options. Well he broke up with me again a month ago for 4 days. He talked to multiple people but swore never her. Well, turns out he did. To “apologize” again. Well fuck it bruh! We got back together obviously and now I found this out. It seems like he leaves me to go fuck around then when he’s done I’m here. Turns out she told him to fuck off or I’m sure he wouldn’t have come back threatening suicide.

You know what. I feel done. I’m done being compared and not good enough. I’m sick to my stomach. I didn’t talk to one guy any of the times besides when he actually got back with his ex, yet I get questioned all the time. Fuck him ladies!!!!!!!!