Rant.

He looked me in my fucking eyes he promised me he would never do what my ex did to me. He fucking promised and the worst god damn part I actually believe him. I wish I was kidding but not even a day later he did the exact thing my ex did to me. I told him no I told him I didn’t want to I told him it hurt yet he didn’t stop even during it I had my arm over my eyes to stop the tears yet he still has the audacity to tell me that he didn’t know I didn’t want to. The worst part is when I told him how hurt I was by this at the end of the fucking day I still had to be the one to grow up put my feelings down and comfort him because he was hurt. And yet I’m still with him I still love him but I’m still so angry and hurt by what he did.